What is life?

I am still single right now… for those you want to know. Lately I was been rumoured to romantically linked to a girl (I don’t want to mention who). Moreover, there is a photo revolving in a site that features me and the girl together! Darn, why people has to react that way? Just because I am being nice to an opposite sex, doesn’t mean I am ready for it…. Sheesh =.=

This is an age old problem, it didn’t start recently but rather from my primary school days. Things got worse when I was in high school, when I was been linked to almost 10 girls! Geez, if all these are true i’m really a uber romeo or a womenizer by now….

The worse thing is to explain this to the girl involved…. though they know its not true, but everyone else think otherwise, and that will go on for a long time….

I don’t know this might go on forever, but at least i’m not rumoured to turn gay or bisexual. Perhaps thats the brighter side of things in life…

wIt is required in our course…. its darn expensive….. yes… its my brand new camera, branded Canon EOS 350D. I never operated a manual camera before, or even a digital SLR, so i started out using the auto functions first… Eventually I’ll take a hell lot of pictures, be it awesome, funny or heartfelt.

So expect a lot of pictures from me from now on…. especially in my deviant art site… http://myintermail.deviantart.com/ , but for now… there’s nothing yet…

See you guys then!

Anyone who asks me why I’m in this course, please raise your hand. (Few hands raised). Anyone who doesn’t believe me that I am studying Creative Multimedia please raise your hand (More hands raised). O_O okay…..

Yes there are times where most people really, really wonder why am i here, or why I am not in the field of scientists, doctors, engineers, lawyers or any other field that requires good grades and moreover studying thousands of textbooks. Worse still, some people think I’m a nerd! Believe me or not, I don’t really like these area of studies. I am just not a studious type. Really! I never burn my midnight oil to study biology or physics during my school days, and even pick up the books to read a few days before the exam, and yet I score a surprising As in the end. Yes, that’s how I live through my science stream days of my life.

My high school years are troubling, especially Form 4. I was put into a so-called "elite" class. I can’t catch up with my peers, and my score is below average of the class…. You will be surprised when you find yourself in embarassment when you are in the bottom bracket of the class achievement even though you score a 67 in physics or chemistry. Only when I got out of the class I can learn better in a relaxed atmosphere, and grades significantly improved then.

Why am I here you ask? Well even though I like a little bit of science (including experiments in the labs that have potential to burn down the lab) but also I like arts. I usually find amused and enjoyment when I saw any artform, be it artworks, literature or music. That’s why I’m here, where science and arts are somewhat balanced. Yes, I do not believe we are fully art students, as there are a little bit of technological ascpect to our course.

Besides, I am so not a nerd, a geek or anything that relates to these stereotypes. Though I wear glasses that make others dizzy if they wear mine, do not really follow fashion trends, not really good at sports, still single, loves to read. (That really checks all the criteria of being one, do they?) BUT I do not study like a freak, knows how to enjoy life, use both sides of my brains, has slight sense of humour (as long the joke is not on me) and not being boring as a person or my lifestyle. So technically speaking and I repeat: I am NOT a nerd.

So am I a science person or artsy person? Why not both? Someday I will be a new age Renaissance man….

yes, Shakira’s hips really don’t lie! This is the song that quickly gained it’s popularity and it is the most streamed song online. Here’s the lyrics:

"Hips Don’t Lie"
(feat. Wyclef Jean)

Ladies up in here tonight
No fighting, no fighting
We got the refugees up in here
No fighting, no fighting

Shakira, Shakira

I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man wants to speak Spanish
Como se llama (si), bonita (si), mi casa (si, Shakira Shakira), su casa
Shakira, Shakira

Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body

And I’m on tonight
You know my hips don’t lie
And I’m starting to feel it’s right
All the attraction, the tension
Don’t you see baby, this is perfection

Hey Girl, I can see your body moving
And it’s driving me crazy
And I didn’t have the slightest idea
Until I saw you dancing

And when you walk up on the dance floor
Nobody cannot ignore the way you move your body, girl
And everything so unexpected - the way you right and left it
So you can keep on shaking it

I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man want to speak Spanish
Como se llama (si), bonita (si), mi casa (si, Shakira Shakira), su casa
Shakira, Shakira

Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body

And I’m on tonight
You know my hips don’t lie
And I am starting to feel you boy
Come on lets go, real slow
Don’t you see baby asi es perfecto

Oh I know I am on tonight my hips don’t lie
And I am starting to feel it’s right
All the attraction, the tension
Don’t you see baby, this is perfection
Shakira, Shakira

Oh boy, I can see your body moving
Half animal, half man
I don’t, don’t really know what I’m doing
But you seem to have a plan
My will and self restraint
Have come to fail now, fail now
See, I am doing what I can, but I can’t so you know
That’s a bit too hard to explain

Baila en la calle de noche
Baila en la calle de día

Baila en la calle de noche
Baila en la calle de día

I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man want to speak Spanish
Como se llama (si), bonita (si), mi casa (si, Shakira Shakira), su casa
Shakira, Shakira

Oh baby when you talk like that
You know you got me hypnotized
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body

Senorita, feel the conga, let me see you move like you come from Colombia

Mira en Barranquilla se baila así, say it!
Mira en Barranquilla se baila así

Yeah
She’s so sexy every man’s fantasy a refugee like me back with the Fugees from a 3rd world country
I go back like when ‘pac carried crates for Humpty Humpty
I need a whole club dizzy
Why the CIA wanna watch us?
Colombians and Haitians
I ain’t guilty, it’s a musical transaction
No more do we snatch ropes
Refugees run the seas ’cause we own our own boats

I’m on tonight, my hips don’t lie
And I’m starting to feel you boy
Come on let’s go, real slow
Baby, like this is perfecto

Oh, you know I am on tonight and my hips don’t lie
And I am starting to feel it’s right
The attraction, the tension
Baby, like this is perfection

No fighting
No fighting

YES….. that is what i’m exposed to throughout my 18th and 19th year of my life… Really, there is so much of these stuff out there, you can’t help but to fall to these not-so clean stuff…. I do not know how to control these influences, how to limit them…. or even avoid them altogether.

Violence: I used to be violent to my circle of friends. The reason why? I’m a bit insecure of myself…. I’m worried I would be bullied if I appear nice to people. I want to look tough as other people are. Yes, I know it will not be pleased by everybody…. it is just the way it is. I prefer slapping my friends back for attention (as even waving in front of them did not work, some cows i have for friends (no offense)), Pushing people aside to make way, or even giving a light hit if people said irritating things about me. Sigh, my past experiences seem to resurface now.

Sex: Need I say more? We are not talking about the natural act of sex here, just some extreme sexual words and their meanings. Not just I’m hearing it now, even seen some of them. All those sexually-related words will never be taught in school will not be explained by peers, but rather I have to discover it myself. And hey, I used to be uncomfortable hearing those words, but now i seem to be familiar with it already. And it is true that I have possessed condoms before, I gave them to my friend just in case he need them.

Language: "What the ****? **** you, *****! This is just ****!" I used to hold back and avoid to use these words, but things get so frustrated nowadays and I might as well blew it. I have to somehow use those vulgar words to channel my negativity in my life, or else I will not feel better. "In rome, do what Romans do…" That’s life in the university, where coarse slangs are used without fear of people telling you not to. Moreover, I found out that there are some people who are behaving like no other nicer words to describe them, really!

It is a wonder that we turn to these stuff for relief and to relax ourselves in the increasingly stressed world. But for the time being, I guess we have to stick for it until some other healthier and more effective methods for that.