Violence, Sex, Language, Other?
YES….. that is what i’m exposed to throughout my 18th and 19th year of my life… Really, there is so much of these stuff out there, you can’t help but to fall to these not-so clean stuff…. I do not know how to control these influences, how to limit them…. or even avoid them altogether.
Violence: I used to be violent to my circle of friends. The reason why? I’m a bit insecure of myself…. I’m worried I would be bullied if I appear nice to people. I want to look tough as other people are. Yes, I know it will not be pleased by everybody…. it is just the way it is. I prefer slapping my friends back for attention (as even waving in front of them did not work, some cows i have for friends (no offense)), Pushing people aside to make way, or even giving a light hit if people said irritating things about me. Sigh, my past experiences seem to resurface now.
Sex: Need I say more? We are not talking about the natural act of sex here, just some extreme sexual words and their meanings. Not just I’m hearing it now, even seen some of them. All those sexually-related words will never be taught in school will not be explained by peers, but rather I have to discover it myself. And hey, I used to be uncomfortable hearing those words, but now i seem to be familiar with it already. And it is true that I have possessed condoms before, I gave them to my friend just in case he need them.
Language: "What the ****? **** you, *****! This is just ****!" I used to hold back and avoid to use these words, but things get so frustrated nowadays and I might as well blew it. I have to somehow use those vulgar words to channel my negativity in my life, or else I will not feel better. "In rome, do what Romans do…" That’s life in the university, where coarse slangs are used without fear of people telling you not to. Moreover, I found out that there are some people who are behaving like no other nicer words to describe them, really!
It is a wonder that we turn to these stuff for relief and to relax ourselves in the increasingly stressed world. But for the time being, I guess we have to stick for it until some other healthier and more effective methods for that.
July 5th, 2006 at 8:23 am
If ya got anything to ask about sex, I really suggest you speak to your peers about it instead of getting your info from unreliable sources. Cos if you’re asking random ppl, u might get wrong concepts. Even adults one generation older than us wouldnt be very open about it. Hmm.. kay this sounds wrong but yea if you’ve got anything that you have always been curious about, you can always ask me. I’m a very open guy
but of course, if i myself dont know, i’ll just tell you straight that I don’t. I wont make up any stories just to look L337 or smtg.. and yes its true, sex is smtg i never bothered to know about until when you’re in university where it seems to be an open subject..
July 11th, 2006 at 12:48 am
Yo!
Its nice reading ur blogs.
I guess people who reach “18″ thinking the same thing. Haha. When I was 18 i thinking these same things, sex violence and stuff.
When u get older, u tend to ignore these small thing coz u have other major issues…..well thats what i’m facing.
U call that violence? hohoho. interesting! i never thought ur making violence move back there. U know what i think? that ain’t violent, that is Calvin!
Anyway, in new environment u either lost ur self, or found ur self.
Good luck and See ya on the field….i mean campus
July 17th, 2006 at 10:07 am
Thanks for commenting
jason: i don’t think people are really open for sex…. guess i have to ask you for that matter
zuhir: hey ya! I too believe these things will be forgotten once i’m mature enough. I think university life makes me lose my violent self and found a more peaceful relaxed person… but my rage is still inside me… must let it out…..
looking foward to see u soon!